18 days to go before start IVF again, and back on board the emotional roller coaster. So thought I would try and relieve the roller coaster by blogging and expressing how I feel from time to time. Right now is apprehensive and am sure that will continue. Had one full treatment starting December 2007 and in February 2008 discovered I was pregnant but the baby didn't grow properly and I lost it at around 9 weeks, resulting in a delightful full day spent in Jimmys to have everything removed. Then October 2008 I tried again, only to have to terminate the treatment as my womb lining wasn't thickening enough. They said to ring again when I next bled, but that wasn't until January (the drugs clearly messing with my cycles that have never been regular at the best of times) by which time I had been allocated my run club's place to run the London marathon in April 2009 and couldn't resist the opportunity of beating my demons from the 2007 FLM where I had a horrendous time. Although yet again the day was scorching and I didn't run the race of my dreams due to the heat and congestion I nonetheless enjoyed it and was ready to go ahead again afterwards only for them to say no, we are too short staffed in the embryology department and are not doing any frozen treatments, come back when you bleed in July. (I have 5 little embryos merrily sat in a freezer somewhere in the depths of the LGI)
Do they not know it is people's lives they are dealing with. I was so mentally ready and had started accupuncture (the friend who recommended trying this is now 6 months pregnant herself), and bang!! No can do, come back later. And then true to form I had a 50/50 chance of bleeding on 1st July and started on 28th June, following my shortest cycle ever.
My way of coping was to do my first olympic triathlon in Ripon on 11th July, an event which I thoroughly enjoyed and was very pleased with my time which was 3 hours 8 mins. Ok there are things in every discipline which I need to improve, but no athlete never has something they need to improve on. And now I am doing another one in York on 16th August before quitting for the remainder of the season (almost over anyway) to concentrate on the treatment.
Plans for 2010:
Plan A no races and give birth to sproglet or two
Plan B couple more Olympic tris, half ironman and the sub four thirty marathon I know I am capable of
