Day one

Just been to hospital this morning for first time, this time round. Lengthy wait as normal but eventually saw the nurse and had a scan and everything was fine, so went to the pharmacy for the drug I needed and then after another wait saw the nurse again for her to inject it. Back in 14 days time to see if my womb lining is thin enough to progress onto the oestrogen drugs (which is what my body failed to react to sufficiently last time). If on target this time will be bit of a pain as we are on holiday for a week to Wales at around the time they will be transferring the embryos, but at least we are in Wales and not getting a flight anywhere. So far so good, but we have learnt over the last few years that not all trips to the LGI are as positive, the rollercoaster continues.

Sat at home typing this, seems so quiet as Suki is at the vets having a number of allergy tests done. Felt awful this morning not giving her breakfast and then taking her back to the vets and leaving her, she has such sorrowful eyes pleading with me not to leave her with the nasty vet, but it is for her own good we hope. Over the last few months she has developed a bad itch and often scratches herself that badly that she then bleeds, so we are trying to get to the bottom as to what the problem is.

Had a great race at the weekend and finished in 2 hours 51. Didn't enjoy the swim being very murky (shallow and sandy) so couldn't see other people's feet until too late and been kicked in the face but had a good bike ride and an ok run. Only 1 girl passed me on the bike and I passed 2, just couldn't catch my club mates/friends who were ahead, but very happy to break 3 hours very comfortably. What race i do next, only time will tell

The final countdown

Only4 days to go until the first hospital visit. Nervous and apprehensive but will be glad of the chance to get the show on the road again and start the process of determining what 2010 will bring to our household. In the meantime I have my final tri race of the season on Sunday at Allerthorpe near York, again an Olympic distance event, my second one. Getting excited and nervous now, going across there tomorrow afternoon to camp, and will drive round the bike course to see what it entails, looks ok from the information posted on the race website. In the second out of 3 waves of swimmers, about 65-70 in my wave so hopefully not as mad as it was at Ripon but not a straightforward swim course so will definitely be interesting.

Had fantastic result at Hyde Park 5k time trial on Saturday, 25.26 according to my watch. Wow couldn't get under 27.30 this time last year so all the hard work is definitely paying off. Just need to learn how to not lose speed in the 3rd km and will then hopefully dip under 25 mins one day ......but not any time soon as won't be there again until after my treatment unless more disasters occur during the treatment. Not done too much this week with it being the race on Sunday

Tick tock.....tick tock....

Another week gone

Not too much to report this week. Another day of acupuncture on Wednesday and I'm sure she forgot me this time as was 45 mins instead of the usual 30 which wouldn't be a problem normally but wanted to get to Pool Triangle time trial and get an early number so could be one of the first to set off, and instead I got 15 , wasn't last to finish but wasn't far off. But I finally broke under 42 mins for the course and not only that I did it in 40 mins bang on, so now have the confidence that one day I will get under. Will try next week but that will be the last one this season as I can't make the last one, and who knows whether I will be racing next year???

IVF on news yesterday about national variances in how many times areas allow you attempts on etc NHS. Apparently the guidelines recommend 3 times, clearly Leeds don't comply as their rules stated 1 only, some areas did 6 - but they didn't say where and I am not moving!!

Plans for next year if I on Plan B are shaping up nicely and in some ways I won't not enjoy it if that's what I end up doing. There are some days at work I wonder why I want children, particularly if I see brats either in my office or in town at dinner time, but then I see our friend's girl Rosa (1 in June) and she reminds me, or someone else I know tells me they are pregnant and it hurts. Just wish family and parents could back off at times, they may not mean to pressurise us but they do and we are both a little fed up to say the least

Had dinner at Rich and Jos on Saturday (Rosa's parents and Andy's best mate) and were talking about whether we'd adopt if it doesn't work out, and I honestly don't know the answer. We adopted Suki successfully but a child is a completely different kettle of fish to a labrador, it answers back for starters. Given my job I know there are a lot of children in the care system needing a good home, but I also know a lot of them are damaged emotionally and in other ways, and some acquaintances of ours adopted a 12 month old several years ago and ended up handing him back cos they couldn't cope with him, which kind of puts us off the idea. It's an area we'll revisit if we have to, but not now