Well the day finally arrived when my embryos were defrosted. I have been anxious given the roller coaster so far, that they would all have perished in the freezer. Before the hospital I went to accupuncture and she played a Zita West CD for pre-transfer in which I had to banish all negative thoughts and get ready to welcome my embryos. Got to the hospital and met the embryologist who confirmed they had defrosted 2 and both were ok so the other 3 remain in the freezer. Both have lost 1 cell each so are both 3 cells, but are potentially viable. Had to change into lovely gown, and andy got his "blues" but couldn't proceed straight away as my bladder wasn't full enough. As so many times in this process my body was having the last laugh! We sat in our cubicle whilst I was swallowing cup after cup of water being entertained by two ladies in teh next cubicle who had clearly been for an egg collection and just coming round from their anaesthetic and were high as a kite and enjoying their day at the "battery farm" as one of them referred to it as.
Eventually my bladder was full enough and off I went, my god it's uncomfortable to say the least, similar but slightly worse than a smear test (always uncomfortable for me as my cervix is not central and they can never find it). How come blokes don't have to endure any of this, it really isn't fair that men can contribute to infertility but it's us that has to endure the drugs, procedures, the pregnancy hormones and sickness and then give birth at the end, all they do is the easy bit -we should be able to come up with a male procedure that hurts!! To top it all had go back to accupuncture afterwards and had 4 needles in each ear - ouch!! Still Andy took me out for dinner as we hadn't got anything out the freezer and the nurse was quite clear that irons, washing machines and cookers were toxic to my embryos
And now as I type I wish I could see what's happening inside and whether they are swimming merrily or choosing to implant themselves and grow???
The ironic thing is as they were "day2" embryos we find out 12 days after the transfer, which is my birthday!! The timing couldn't be any better or worse!!
Happy birthday - or drown sorrows birthday?? Only time will tell!!
Thursday, 24 September 2009
Monday, 21 September 2009
last few weeks
Well the roller coaster has most definitely been continuing at full force in the last few weeks but been away in Wales with no computer hence not had chance to blog. Went to hospital on 11th to be told I wasn't thick enough. Gutted!! Off to Wales for week's holiday on Saturday as booked 6 months prior. On the way we called off at Chester hospital to visit Barbara and Lauren who was well cute but oh so small, still only about 4 lb 3oz but doing well. Watched Andy do his first ever olympic triathlon on Sunday, he did well to get to the end given his lack of training and going over on his ankle the morning of the race and finished in just under 3.5 hours.
On Tuesday we returned to Leeds leaving Suki with my parents only to be told still not thick enough, come back Thursday. we refused! Spoke with the Doctor as well as the nurse and agreed to carry on the pills until Saturday but both went home thinking we would have this round terminated as well as I was no thicker than I was last year when they terminated us due to not being thick enough.
Climbed Snowdon on THursday and then home Friday evening and back to hospital on Saturday. Still no thicker but this time they are willing to go ahead and transfer. I am 6.7mm and anything over 6 is viable although they prefer it to be 8mm. However I had been discussed with the Professor who heads the department who is of the view that given both times I have got to 6.7 and not beyond, even with a higher dose of tablets, that is all my body will do and to go ahead and see what happens.
So sometime on Wednesday we'll be off to the LGI again, find out the time tomorrow. One last hurdle will be the thawing process and hoping em and bryo II have survived their 18 months in the freezer - fingers crossed
Assuming they have I'll then find out 2 weeks later - eek
If it's a yes, then shall be thrilled but very nervous given I lost the last one
If it's a no, then I will go online and see if there are still places for the Guy Fawkes and Abbey Dash races in November and recommence training
Which will it be???? Only time will tell!!!
On Tuesday we returned to Leeds leaving Suki with my parents only to be told still not thick enough, come back Thursday. we refused! Spoke with the Doctor as well as the nurse and agreed to carry on the pills until Saturday but both went home thinking we would have this round terminated as well as I was no thicker than I was last year when they terminated us due to not being thick enough.
Climbed Snowdon on THursday and then home Friday evening and back to hospital on Saturday. Still no thicker but this time they are willing to go ahead and transfer. I am 6.7mm and anything over 6 is viable although they prefer it to be 8mm. However I had been discussed with the Professor who heads the department who is of the view that given both times I have got to 6.7 and not beyond, even with a higher dose of tablets, that is all my body will do and to go ahead and see what happens.
So sometime on Wednesday we'll be off to the LGI again, find out the time tomorrow. One last hurdle will be the thawing process and hoping em and bryo II have survived their 18 months in the freezer - fingers crossed
Assuming they have I'll then find out 2 weeks later - eek
If it's a yes, then shall be thrilled but very nervous given I lost the last one
If it's a no, then I will go online and see if there are still places for the Guy Fawkes and Abbey Dash races in November and recommence training
Which will it be???? Only time will tell!!!
Monday, 7 September 2009
Latest thoughts
Barbara gave birth on Saurday night, accupunture helped her and will hopefully help me. She didn't however need it at the end to help persuade the baby to come out, due date 16th October and gave birth 5th september!!
Had accupuncture on Friday and had elctrodes in back and legs for the first time, very wierd. Supposed to help the blood flow to the uterus and thicken the lining. Going again twice this week before the hospital appointment. Andy wondered if I a mug, but would rather focus on it is helping, than the negative thoughts that creep in every now and again, that I failed at this stage last time, come on body fatten up please so we can defrost and see what happens this time
Had accupuncture on Friday and had elctrodes in back and legs for the first time, very wierd. Supposed to help the blood flow to the uterus and thicken the lining. Going again twice this week before the hospital appointment. Andy wondered if I a mug, but would rather focus on it is helping, than the negative thoughts that creep in every now and again, that I failed at this stage last time, come on body fatten up please so we can defrost and see what happens this time
Wednesday, 2 September 2009
Back to hospital again yesterday. Was really apprehensive as had spent most of last week and the bank holiday weekend waiting for my period to start and getting more and more frustrated when it wasn't. As usual my body was having the last laugh just as it did when we first went ahead with IVF. Whereas the last 2 months I have been 28 days each cycle this time around I got to day 37 and started the day before my hospital appointment. Even my acupuncturist failed in her attempt to speed the process up. Fortunately I shed enough lining in 24 hours to be "thin enough" in terms of womb lining to proceed onto the second stage - the oestrogen tablets. Now on day 2 of those and go back next Friday. On a much higher dose than last time from the outset as my first attempt at a frozen cycle failed as my body wasn't reacting well enough to the medication, needless to say am a little nervous as we can't see inside to know what's happening.
As we go back the day before we go to Wales for a week's holiday (booked months ago!) we are hoping I'll be "fat enough" by then to go ahead with a transfer and can just come back from Wales to Leeds once for that to happen. Will be very frustrating if we have 2 or more trips back and won't benefit from a week away from home/work..... but then if life ever went to plan we wouldn't be here and needing the medical assistance in the first instance!!
As we go back the day before we go to Wales for a week's holiday (booked months ago!) we are hoping I'll be "fat enough" by then to go ahead with a transfer and can just come back from Wales to Leeds once for that to happen. Will be very frustrating if we have 2 or more trips back and won't benefit from a week away from home/work..... but then if life ever went to plan we wouldn't be here and needing the medical assistance in the first instance!!
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